Much Tougher by Optic
Submitted by opticnation
I haven’t posted in 2 weeks, I wanted to wait until I had more to say. It has been hectic with 1 or 2 tension headaches. To my own disbelief I made the second draft hand-in for the Dissertation, I haven’t had the feedback yet and thats always interesting. The realisation of whats the come this year hit me quite hard at the beginning of this week and I had a really bad day, you know one of those days where it everything ticks you off! however when I have a day like that I try not to expose anyone to my wrath so my bedroom in Uni is where I stayed for the majority of that day. I think anyone who has days like that shouldn’t feel guilty about it, we are all human and we all lose our shit from time to time.
The following day was the start of my 3 day internship at Water’s Creative in Swansea and I loved it instantly! It was great working in a real design studio and the whole team were very welcoming. We were given a brief to create an identity for a 24hour Gym in Swansea, we could pick the target audience and name of the gym and we had to create an identity and design for print and web. I had an amazing time and had some positive feedback the only downside was that I didn’t get to complete the 3 days as day number 3 was a snow day.
It’s given me the boost I so desperately needed, I can actually work well in a Design studio and considering thats what I’ve been working towards these past 3 years at Uni i’m over the moon! All I have to do now is try not to let work get on top of me and produce high quality design ready for my exhibition. I think my worst fear other than failing is not being proud of what I produce at the end of it all. Time to keep a positive head.
Emailed a new company looking for a bit of experience and sent some examples of my work, they emailed back and said they’d love to have me come to the office for a week in the new year whenever I’m free.
Christmas is over, I return to Uni in a week and I could probably list 101 things I’d rather do than go back. As much as I have loved coming home and spending Christmas with friends and family it’s made me slack and now I’m dreading going back and having to face mountains of work and stress. Even though I know I’m soo close to the end I cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel. I hate feeling stressed out. I’ve avoided thinking about or even mentioning the word Uni up until 2 days ago and now I have that familiar feeling that I’ve had the past 2 years at this exact time, pure dred.
I’ve made a to do list, and what bugs me the most is that the dissertation is priority, I wish it wasn’t. I’m not a natural writer and it kills me that i’m worrying over it when what I’d rather be putting all my energy into is my Design work. It’s one of the more frustrating things about a degree course.
If I focus on the negatives any longer I’ll drive myself insane, so this has been my rant it’s out of my system. I shall move on!
Wish me luck.